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by motherjuggs&speed
Mon Mar 30, 2020 7:26 am
Forum: Training Journals
Topic: Eye of the Goat
Replies: 137
Views: 1976

Re: Eye of the Goat

Oh and one more for tonight's epistle. I also did not think about my state of mind at time x. Most people use a lot of inertial thinking. We think a certain thing and revise our opinions slowly. A single piece of evidence can, should, cause us to rethink things. When I caught my landlord lying point...
by motherjuggs&speed
Mon Mar 30, 2020 5:04 am
Forum: Trooper's Training Forum - In memory of Col. James "Jim" R Tirey, USA
Topic: COVID-FIT: Survive the Chinese AIDS
Replies: 53
Views: 1310

Re: COVID-FIT: Survive the Chinese AIDS

I've read on the local bike boards that the drivers have gotten even more aggressive than usual with cyclists and there have been a few muggings as the animals south of the city find easy targets what with single cyclists out alone. My libertarian and conservative biases are in favor of a law, or a...
by motherjuggs&speed
Mon Mar 30, 2020 3:41 am
Forum: Training Journals
Topic: Eye of the Goat
Replies: 137
Views: 1976

Re: Eye of the Goat

The other part I realized is that I thought I was thinking but I was really going over the same ground, without re-examining assumptions. So I wasn't actually thinking better or deeper or anything good, I was just rehashing. The example I can use here is chess. I'm not good, barely 1800, but I reali...
by motherjuggs&speed
Mon Mar 30, 2020 3:29 am
Forum: Training Journals
Topic: Eye of the Goat
Replies: 137
Views: 1976

Re: Eye of the Goat

Two thoughts on this in case it's of interest - It's annoying that I didn't apply this one: If you have a problem that seems intractable, assess whether it really is, or should be. Meaning, some things do require a lot of calculation and/or knowledge, but should the given problem be this hard to unr...
by motherjuggs&speed
Mon Mar 30, 2020 2:47 am
Forum: Training Journals
Topic: Eye of the Goat
Replies: 137
Views: 1976

Re: Eye of the Goat

Walked about two miles. Then did about 20 minutes of dzogchen on the riverbank. For the last year I was saying I don't have a place to meditate and there's the river 15 minutes away. I'm glad I found it. It's annoying how many times I have to learn the same lessons. I also had an idea, not sure if i...
by motherjuggs&speed
Sun Mar 29, 2020 3:36 am
Forum: Free Speech Forum
Topic: N-95 Masks from Dragon Door
Replies: 15
Views: 351

Re: N-95 Masks from Dragon Door

There is this idea people often have that a given person will only be so big a piece of shit. They think that there's only so far someone will go. This is a dangerous idea. If a person is beyond a given point, hard to quantify exactly but I think it's a real line, then there's nothing he won't do.
by motherjuggs&speed
Sun Mar 29, 2020 3:32 am
Forum: Training Journals
Topic: Eye of the Goat
Replies: 137
Views: 1976

Re: Eye of the Goat

Without the illusion that I have value and can do things it's harder to do things. With awareness of how much I suck comes a lot of doubt about myself globally, meaning even in areas where I'm not lacking, or nearly as much anyway. Many other people seem to be also consumed with self loathing but th...
by motherjuggs&speed
Thu Mar 26, 2020 2:15 am
Forum: Training Journals
Topic: Eye of the Goat
Replies: 137
Views: 1976

Re: Eye of the Goat

Walked to the river. ' I've been writing more. I was about to say I've also been trying to do better thinking but that isn't true. I keep thinking I'll do better thinking but that's just an excuse to not actually do it. I keep neglecting to account for how important things are. My stack does work. T...
by motherjuggs&speed
Wed Mar 25, 2020 5:19 am
Forum: Training Journals
Topic: Eye of the Goat
Replies: 137
Views: 1976

Re: Eye of the Goat

Walked to the river. Dzogchen for about ten minutes. 236. So no progress on fat loss. I have to add in some easy cardio and try harder to avoid sneaky cals. I thought I was doing that. So tired of doing the same crap. So tired of being so tired of it, etc., I keep thinking I understand and then . . ...
by motherjuggs&speed
Tue Mar 24, 2020 6:22 am
Forum: Free Speech Forum
Topic: My State Has Gone Full Fucking Clownship
Replies: 76
Views: 1259

Re: My State Has Gone Full Fucking Clownship

You could frame it as "letting old people die to save the economy". You could also call it not destroying the economy at the cost of some number of lives. I haven't seen any assessments of economic damage vs. lives lost vs. societal disruption vs. government oppression. The experts on pandemics are ...
by motherjuggs&speed
Tue Mar 24, 2020 3:19 am
Forum: Training Journals
Topic: Eye of the Goat
Replies: 137
Views: 1976

Re: Eye of the Goat

Walked to the river. I had an odd interaction with a dog where we each thought the other might be a threat, then I thought, okay, he's just a friendly puppy and scratched him a little. It's funny about how one perception leads to another. If I were some leftist self glorifying knowitall I would wax ...
by motherjuggs&speed
Tue Mar 24, 2020 12:25 am
Forum: Training Journals
Topic: Eye of the Goat
Replies: 137
Views: 1976

Re: Eye of the Goat

BP -- 185 x 1,2,3
Curls -- 65 x 7,7,5

Felt like doing much more would be too much. Have to do this every 3-4 days, not once a week.
by motherjuggs&speed
Mon Mar 23, 2020 9:59 pm
Forum: Training Journals
Topic: Back to KBs
Replies: 176
Views: 28958

Re: Back to KBs

JasonC wrote:
Mon Mar 23, 2020 4:47 am
PM: rucked 7 hours fasted. If this kind of shit, done in ketosis, doesn't finally get me lean again, I'll just consider home lipo with a cordless vacuum.
Ed Coan's idea of "the body will only fight you for long" may apply here. If you stay on the path you will get to where the path leads.
by motherjuggs&speed
Sun Mar 22, 2020 1:48 am
Forum: Free Speech Forum
Topic: Alright MOFOs, let's get constructive
Replies: 30
Views: 739

Re: Alright MOFOs, let's get constructive

600,000 people died in the Civil War. They didn't make it through anything. And there is no giving up civil liberties "for a bit'. It's a ratchet, it never goes back. Every temporary measure is eventually permanent. Income tax was temporary to pay for the war. The draft was temporary. And it doesn't...
by motherjuggs&speed
Sun Mar 22, 2020 1:15 am
Forum: Training Journals
Topic: Eye of the Goat
Replies: 137
Views: 1976

Re: Eye of the Goat

RDLs -- 115 x 8, 10

Tried doing these with the Fat Gripz but no. I'll do some warmups w/ the FG and try to work up.
by motherjuggs&speed
Sun Mar 22, 2020 12:44 am
Forum: Free Speech Forum
Topic: Alright MOFOs, let's get constructive
Replies: 30
Views: 739

Re: Alright MOFOs, let's get constructive

I don't see it that way. To us, the Depression is history and we can look at how good things were beginning in 1949 or so. For 20 years things sucked, hard. To most people, admittedly including me, the Depression was "people tightened their belts and made do". There had to be all kinds of horrors th...
by motherjuggs&speed
Sat Mar 21, 2020 11:06 pm
Forum: Free Speech Forum
Topic: Alright MOFOs, let's get constructive
Replies: 30
Views: 739

Re: Alright MOFOs, let's get constructive

Flattening the curve is mostly delaying the inevitable and increasing the cost. We are going to get crushed. When we slow down the production, we are bringing on a lot of other ills. I say it's better to bring on a steep global depression now and get the outbreak and economic collapse over with befo...
by motherjuggs&speed
Sat Mar 21, 2020 10:13 am
Forum: Training Journals
Topic: Eye of the Goat
Replies: 137
Views: 1976

Re: Eye of the Goat

When I say these things, often people say, maybe you should take a look at why. Well, I know for a fact that I'm not actually a rapist or anything like it, which I was accused of being at Contact, actually the spokesman for the group told me that. I know that I was neither attempting to hurt that gi...
by motherjuggs&speed
Sat Mar 21, 2020 9:13 am
Forum: Training Journals
Topic: Eye of the Goat
Replies: 137
Views: 1976

Re: Eye of the Goat

Stressful dreams, the one that woke me was this: I was trying to put out a fire in the basement. I was trying to do it but as I am in life I was dazed and moving slowly and was mentally foggy. The dream before that was me realizing how much I had harmed myself in life, which is also something I was ...
by motherjuggs&speed
Sat Mar 21, 2020 8:41 am
Forum: Training Journals
Topic: Eye of the Goat
Replies: 137
Views: 1976

Re: Eye of the Goat

Thanks. I can't PM though.
by motherjuggs&speed
Fri Mar 20, 2020 6:14 pm
Forum: Training Journals
Topic: Eye of the Goat
Replies: 137
Views: 1976

Re: Eye of the Goat

So much pain right now. I feel the mistakes and pains of my life. People say that's living in the past but that's stupid: I physically feel what's missing. What can't be put in at this point. Gary V says that part of him wishes that tomorrow he would wake up and honestly not care about business anym...
by motherjuggs&speed
Thu Mar 19, 2020 9:23 pm
Forum: Trooper's Training Forum - In memory of Col. James "Jim" R Tirey, USA
Topic: COVID-FIT: Survive the Chinese AIDS
Replies: 53
Views: 1310

Re: COVID-FIT: Survive the Chinese AIDS

nafod wrote:
Thu Mar 19, 2020 8:09 pm
who paid whom?
In assessing any couple, just remember: The ugly one has the money.
by motherjuggs&speed
Thu Mar 19, 2020 9:07 pm
Forum: Free Speech Forum
Topic: My State Has Gone Full Fucking Clownship
Replies: 76
Views: 1259

Re: My State Has Gone Full Fucking Clownship

Of course we'd have to have death panels in order to decide who gets the rare available ventilator. Conservatives love death panels. Some phrases enter our society and do harm for decades. Protect the children. If it saves one life. Keeping us safe. Just doing my job. It's not personal.These are mi...
by motherjuggs&speed
Thu Mar 19, 2020 10:31 am
Forum: Training Journals
Topic: Eye of the Goat
Replies: 137
Views: 1976

Re: Eye of the Goat

It's worse when I feel bad. It's worse when I try to feel not so bad. It's worse when I try to feel good. It's worse when I try not to feel. Stoicism has made things worse for me. It may be hard to believe but a major problem for me in my life was sucking it up, turning off my emotions, and doing ha...
by motherjuggs&speed
Thu Mar 19, 2020 10:15 am
Forum: Free Speech Forum
Topic: My State Has Gone Full Fucking Clownship
Replies: 76
Views: 1259

Re: My State Has Gone Full Fucking Clownship

It's too late to do what S. Korea did. They got on it early and hard, testing basically everyone. We have no idea where all the infected are.