Just came home from another session. Things start becoming clearer. What I noticed is that i is easier - in a way - to grapple with higher belts than with novices like me. Big guys tend to do things very smoothly, and though I can pretty much nothing against them I learn a lot. While even though sometimes I manage to overpower a white belt newbie it is more of a fitness exercise than true Jiu Jitsu. It is very gratifying though when I manage to catch and sweep a guy bigger than me with little effort.
Congrats on starting. Haven't been on the board in ages and this was the first thread I opened. Some good advice for sure. I'll be 43 soon and have just passed my 3 year mark. I've managed to stick with it and make it to 2 stripe blue belt. I've had several injuries along the way. Both of my knees have been popped, broke the same toe twice, sprained AC, terrible wrist sprain which I still suffer from and its been a year or so, nearly all of my fingers are jacked but my right pinky has a knot from hell on it, all of that with cyst's on my ovaries getting popped from 300lbers putting down some hard core knee on belly.
Now with all that, which all resulted from going too hard too often along with rolling for keeps with idiots in their 20s, breakfalls and the regular practicing of them probably saved me from terrible injury here at home. I had some gymnastic rings hanging in the gym. My Dad and I had finished training and the wife and so walked out and we were just talking. The rings were set at about head height for me and I was just hanging on a single ring while we talked. I decided to try to just jump myself up in front lever position(of which I can not do anyway) and the eye bolt broke from the rafter. I probably fell from 4 feet or more onto the ply wood on my upper back and neck. I broke the fall but it gave me a flash knockout. I think it game me whiplash or something because my neck is still jacked a bit. My family were stunned and didn't know what to say when I fell. My dad said that he thought the fall would have killed a normal person. I told him if I hadn't know how to breakfall along with my body being conditioned and calloused to heavy and hard throws it could have possibly broke my neck.
If you are going to train BJJ/Judo. You are going to get injured, its just the way it is. Even when going "easy". All this leave the ego at the door talk is simply talk. Yeah its what white belt and blue belts want everyone to say, but when you start getting the feel of things you'll want to get a bite. The key is to just focus on defending against the spazzed out ones(and they come in more colors than white) because they usually don't have good JJ. They are like drive by shooters and don't hit anything unless you stick your arms and head out of the door to see whats going on.
On the conditioning side of things, all the HIIT stuff never did a thing for my mat conditioning. Long slow cardio rules for me. Although that can also be due to my style of grappling which is a slow brutal grind with as much pressure as I can produce. I try to wring them into knots.