There was a major terror attack on a main street where I was today at that time. I knew something terrible would occur. I could feel it and was starting to get enraged and wanted to turn back but had to get a cell phone charger. I got a new cell phone. It's a long story. Everything with me is.
https://www.jpost.com/breaking-news/article-782232
People in this country are completely clueless as to what they're facing. I don't belong here anymore. I try to help people wake up but it's pointless. I have gotten reactions from people like You're an American What are you doing here? I used to believe I was Jewish, but they may as well call me a kike or a dirty Jew. I did take a shower and got clean so I'm a clean American mammal with a valid passport. Actually USA mammal cause Canadians consider themselves to be living in North america and a lot of them hate us USA citizens as I found out years ago visiting British Columbia.
I have a flight for Miami 1AM Thursday. I will be surprised if I survive to get on the plane. I am an American citizen. They got surfing, skateboarding, krav maga, and I can get a gun and i better do some STFU therapy in the immortal words of that motherfucker Glassman. shut the fuck up therapy. I don't think I will leave this apartment until I get in the taxi to the airport.
I loved this when I was 10 years old in 1959
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4pgbJaKemic
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4pgbJaKemic[/youtube]
This is the first Fleetwood Mac who I heard in concert twice in 1969 in England.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rOIFEUk-C4o
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rOIFEUk-C4o[/youtube]
Supposedly they outsold the Beatles in Europe in 1969 and would have been superstars in the USA if guitarist Peter Green hadn't cracked up
I was in a restaurant in London in 1969 and saw this on the juke box.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eVrN2E4VHzQ
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eVrN2E4VHzQ[/youtube]
I hadn't heard of Fleetwood Mac and heard them twice in concert in England in 1969 once at the Royal Albert Hall. I remember they had a very clear sound. This was before the Lindsay Buckingham version in the 1970s with the huge hits.
I don't want to be on that side of Flawrida, the pronunciation for New Yawkers. i went down there in 1959 when there was no I-95. My family took a trip down to Miami Beach. I saw hillbillies living in shacks in West Virginia. Gas stations with 4 bathrooms 2 for colored and 2 for white. I was in utter disbelief. and they sold fire crackers. What could be better. Miami Beach had palm trees. What a trip. I still remember it.
Bram
How did the Lopez brothers, Cory and Shea who lived on the West side of Florida make it to what was then called the WCT? I understand the other guys - twins CJ Hobgood actually won the championship in 2001 when the tour cancelled a lot of the competitions due to 9/11. He said he didn't feel he really won.
Take care of your health guys. The people my age are pretty fucked up. My mental health hasn't been much. I've had a virus for months but better get better enough to be on the plane. I showed some people in stores I can jump from my stomach to a surf stance. only to prove to them that i lived thru this shit during the VietNam protests and i got some life left and they could organize on facebook and we got the shit kicked out of us or killed for protesting. But I am a dinosaur at 74. How long does this go on.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DP5DflRasOk
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DP5DflRasOk[/youtube]
I doubt I will ever see my two adult children. I lost everything but my health and my life. I was sure I'd face my Maker a few hours ago. That will come one day. and thought of this song.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rqxqyxnuaJg
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rqxqyxnuaJg[/youtube]
the original by the immortal Elmore James
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=837GaWUZ4Yk
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=837GaWUZ4Yk[/youtube]
finally Paul Butterfield who I heard in concert (how could I not have heard him in concert)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TjUWtmxY5Kw
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TjUWtmxY5Kw[/youtube]
I think that Peter Green and guitarist Michael Bloomfield are in the top 10 of the electric guitarists but that's my opinion There was a poll in rolling stone magazine that Joni Mitchell is in the top 10. It's a joke to me but what do i know. I'm a dinosaur and on my way out of here. I really was sure a few hours I was about to die very soon. which of course reminded of this band I heard live in 1969
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T6Q6x3-yQuM
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T6Q6x3-yQuM[/youtube]
How could I not finish with Jimi Hendrix 51st anniversary which seems to be the opposite of my marriage which was pretty good for the first ten years and has been a real downer the last ten. it's 37 years into this - half my life
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PeoofZswajI
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PeoofZswajI[/youtube].
What an education you guys get. Only people my age could appreciate how crazy this is.
I might make it to Florida
Moderator: Dux
I might make it to Florida
I hope you have safe travels and find some peace in Florida.
I might make it to Florida
Boris
thank you
Can you believe this
https://www.jpost.com/health-and-wellne ... cle-782330
Israel doesn't have to put up with this. Before I walked onto the street with the terror attack I had the urge to flee. People act so nonchalantly like nothing could happen. I feel like I am a Jew fleeing Europe before the Holocaust but I am an American citizen. I never expect to return. I don't think I will ever see my adult children again. It is horrifying. i can't believe this is happening but it is. I was sure I'd die here but a travel agent did find me a flight and Israel could be flooded with terrorists. I won't leave this apartment until I get in the taxi to the airport. I can't believe this but it is happening and I knew the terror attack would happen. I want to scream WAKE UP WAKE UP YOU WILL ALL DIE HERE. I try to say it nicely and almost no one wants to listen to me.
I met an Arab who understands the situation better than the Jews. I said you should be prime minister. He knew I wasn't kidding. I told him to learn krav maga and get out of Israel and go to Bahrain or Indonesia and get a false passport. He says he can't leave. I risked my life to talk to him a few times. he won't take more covid shots. I printed up pages of information about it from Dr Peter McCullough and even went back to where he works to make sure he understands what formula to use to rid himself of the mRNA spike protein because McCullough's website has been blocked and he has a new one but it's not that easy to reach it. I have risked my life for a few people to help them. This Arab knew he could trust me. I told him if my wife puts a gun to my head (I have thought numerous times to get her cousin to shoot me in the head just to stop the emotional pain I'm in) and asks who sold me the product I bought I would have to say it was him. I told him the truth. I don't expect her to do that. Our 37 year marriage is over but I still love her even though she has lied a lot to me. How could a marriage deteriorate so badly so quickly. I don't know.
I have learned that there are times to put one foot in front of another and just to keep going because this moment is OK although the next is not. I have learned that life can be incredibly unpredictable and that it can end in a moment. I have learned it's better at times to be wrong and make a correction than to hold on to old assumptions that no longer serve me but they might in the future. There is no certainty but the floor will hold my weight unless there is an earthquake, very unlikely or a missile strike. This building almost exploded due to a gas leak believe it or not. i have to stop writing.
Boris
thanks
I don't know that I'll ever return and I'd never believe i'd start over again in the USA at the age of 74 but I might have to. Take care of yourselves.
thank you
Can you believe this
https://www.jpost.com/health-and-wellne ... cle-782330
Israel doesn't have to put up with this. Before I walked onto the street with the terror attack I had the urge to flee. People act so nonchalantly like nothing could happen. I feel like I am a Jew fleeing Europe before the Holocaust but I am an American citizen. I never expect to return. I don't think I will ever see my adult children again. It is horrifying. i can't believe this is happening but it is. I was sure I'd die here but a travel agent did find me a flight and Israel could be flooded with terrorists. I won't leave this apartment until I get in the taxi to the airport. I can't believe this but it is happening and I knew the terror attack would happen. I want to scream WAKE UP WAKE UP YOU WILL ALL DIE HERE. I try to say it nicely and almost no one wants to listen to me.
I met an Arab who understands the situation better than the Jews. I said you should be prime minister. He knew I wasn't kidding. I told him to learn krav maga and get out of Israel and go to Bahrain or Indonesia and get a false passport. He says he can't leave. I risked my life to talk to him a few times. he won't take more covid shots. I printed up pages of information about it from Dr Peter McCullough and even went back to where he works to make sure he understands what formula to use to rid himself of the mRNA spike protein because McCullough's website has been blocked and he has a new one but it's not that easy to reach it. I have risked my life for a few people to help them. This Arab knew he could trust me. I told him if my wife puts a gun to my head (I have thought numerous times to get her cousin to shoot me in the head just to stop the emotional pain I'm in) and asks who sold me the product I bought I would have to say it was him. I told him the truth. I don't expect her to do that. Our 37 year marriage is over but I still love her even though she has lied a lot to me. How could a marriage deteriorate so badly so quickly. I don't know.
I have learned that there are times to put one foot in front of another and just to keep going because this moment is OK although the next is not. I have learned that life can be incredibly unpredictable and that it can end in a moment. I have learned it's better at times to be wrong and make a correction than to hold on to old assumptions that no longer serve me but they might in the future. There is no certainty but the floor will hold my weight unless there is an earthquake, very unlikely or a missile strike. This building almost exploded due to a gas leak believe it or not. i have to stop writing.
Boris
thanks
I don't know that I'll ever return and I'd never believe i'd start over again in the USA at the age of 74 but I might have to. Take care of yourselves.
I might make it to Florida
Lenny,
Glad you’re getting out of Israel! Terror attacks on the street is not something a person should have to endure. Best of luck in Florida!
Dunno the story of the Lopez brothers. Got into following pro surfing around 2010 and missed their era.
Glad you’re getting out of Israel! Terror attacks on the street is not something a person should have to endure. Best of luck in Florida!
Dunno the story of the Lopez brothers. Got into following pro surfing around 2010 and missed their era.
“Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then, gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.” — Rilke
I might make it to Florida
I am still here. It's a long story as usual, but I will try again next week to go to Florida. I packed up in a rush and it got too late to go. By now nobody hear believes me. Did you answer me if you walk down Main Street in Encinitas whether or not you can see the Pacific. I could in 1977 and couldn't in 1995 or 2009 but I believe it was possible during Covid.
What do you think of this program by Brad Gehrlach. https://www.waveki.com/pages/the-program
https://www.waveki.com/pages/the-program
It might be good for you but it's not for me cause I have to start all over again from the whitewater
Hope the surf is good for you and you don't have the regrets I have but my life isn't over yet.
There are so many Israelis I meet who have lived in the USA either the East coast, the West coast
or Florida but when I say "Ha Y'all" don't know what accent it is. You know what accent it is.
Tell me what accent it is.
How about Let's go surfin brah. You know where that is.
But they don't. They have no idea.
I have the feeling you don't lie to me and are a really good person but
you probably don't know whether I'm 74 or not. I don't know what else
to say except right now
God bless you. (god be with ye) or (God be with ye)
What do you think of this program by Brad Gehrlach. https://www.waveki.com/pages/the-program
https://www.waveki.com/pages/the-program
It might be good for you but it's not for me cause I have to start all over again from the whitewater
Hope the surf is good for you and you don't have the regrets I have but my life isn't over yet.
There are so many Israelis I meet who have lived in the USA either the East coast, the West coast
or Florida but when I say "Ha Y'all" don't know what accent it is. You know what accent it is.
Tell me what accent it is.
How about Let's go surfin brah. You know where that is.
But they don't. They have no idea.
I have the feeling you don't lie to me and are a really good person but
you probably don't know whether I'm 74 or not. I don't know what else
to say except right now
God bless you. (god be with ye) or (God be with ye)
I might make it to Florida
It’s great you can get out. Sorry to hear about your close call. Intense.
Where are you going to in the States? Are flights operating normally or is your whole society different? I’m interested!
Where are you going to in the States? Are flights operating normally or is your whole society different? I’m interested!
I might make it to Florida
Lenny,
You can see the Pacific between some Encinitas streets from Highway 1/Main Street.
I think Wave Ki sounds super cool! A friend did it and swore it helped him.
My issue with it is that in good surfing you are pushing the board away from you (surfing on the rail), whereas in Wave Ki you are pushing yourself away from the floor. And because the floor doesn’t move you can increase joint stress.
That said, the mechanics of Wave Ki are correct for great surfing and it’s really, really hard to surf correctly if you aren’t consciously developing the correct arm, hip, head, eye, etc. movements.
In sum: I feel cautiously optimistic about it, but would be very aware of knee and hip stresses.
You can see the Pacific between some Encinitas streets from Highway 1/Main Street.
I think Wave Ki sounds super cool! A friend did it and swore it helped him.
My issue with it is that in good surfing you are pushing the board away from you (surfing on the rail), whereas in Wave Ki you are pushing yourself away from the floor. And because the floor doesn’t move you can increase joint stress.
That said, the mechanics of Wave Ki are correct for great surfing and it’s really, really hard to surf correctly if you aren’t consciously developing the correct arm, hip, head, eye, etc. movements.
In sum: I feel cautiously optimistic about it, but would be very aware of knee and hip stresses.
“Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then, gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.” — Rilke
I might make it to Florida
Bram
Thanks for your advice. I appreciate it. I signed up for it. I may not do much surfing or any at all. I haven't started the program. I hope to do it because it looks like something that I could learn from. I will try to be extremely conservative and maybe just do a few movements with different variations. I have to be very careful. Last night I was sure I'd have terrible back spasms but didn't. I was so exhausted and had to do so many things like clean the floor in an exhausted state that there were times I had to lie down on the floor and do some foam rolling and other movements and wasn't sure if I could get back up without injury. I got thru it and am more or less OK. I'm not joking. If you read what I was writing to Luke that should post next, you will get a better understanding of my situation.
Thanks for letting me know about Encinitas. I might come out to California. My life is in a complete upheaval but that's life.
I think of this movie when I see your photo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G6UcFRkkdSM
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G6UcFRkkdSM[/youtube]
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yZ-dPBoR_xg
[youtube]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yZ-dPBoR_xg[/youtube]. when the movie was made probably not many lawyers surfed because it was probably still a rebellious youth oriented cultural/sport lifestyle. That's the impression I had from the movie Bustin Down the Door
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=neoqvIcrM5Y
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=neoqvIcrM5Y[/youtube]
Keep surfin man or in Hawaii it might be Brah let's surf. Or in my generation maybe (I don't know I wasn't surfing then but failed miserably but did get one ride for a second at the Outer Banks and was in such shock I immediately fell off) Come on motherfucker let's hit the water. If you ever saw that TV series John from Cincinnati
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jeBj4KfHbuQ
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jeBj4KfHbuQ[/youtube] I couldn't find the part where one of the characters says Let's get wet.
There were years I was watching surf contests and surf movies. starting in 1976 and then didn't for about 30 years and did again for a few years and have stopped all together. I don't watch pro sports anymore. I did see Kelly Slater from about 3 yards away enter the water at Trestles and saw Andy Irons in a heat at Huntington Beach. It was free and I didn't hear the announcer I was so close to the water so I was basically meditating. It was good at the time. Have a good weekend.
Thanks for your advice. I appreciate it. I signed up for it. I may not do much surfing or any at all. I haven't started the program. I hope to do it because it looks like something that I could learn from. I will try to be extremely conservative and maybe just do a few movements with different variations. I have to be very careful. Last night I was sure I'd have terrible back spasms but didn't. I was so exhausted and had to do so many things like clean the floor in an exhausted state that there were times I had to lie down on the floor and do some foam rolling and other movements and wasn't sure if I could get back up without injury. I got thru it and am more or less OK. I'm not joking. If you read what I was writing to Luke that should post next, you will get a better understanding of my situation.
Thanks for letting me know about Encinitas. I might come out to California. My life is in a complete upheaval but that's life.
I think of this movie when I see your photo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G6UcFRkkdSM
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G6UcFRkkdSM[/youtube]
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yZ-dPBoR_xg
[youtube]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yZ-dPBoR_xg[/youtube]. when the movie was made probably not many lawyers surfed because it was probably still a rebellious youth oriented cultural/sport lifestyle. That's the impression I had from the movie Bustin Down the Door
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=neoqvIcrM5Y
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=neoqvIcrM5Y[/youtube]
Keep surfin man or in Hawaii it might be Brah let's surf. Or in my generation maybe (I don't know I wasn't surfing then but failed miserably but did get one ride for a second at the Outer Banks and was in such shock I immediately fell off) Come on motherfucker let's hit the water. If you ever saw that TV series John from Cincinnati
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jeBj4KfHbuQ
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jeBj4KfHbuQ[/youtube] I couldn't find the part where one of the characters says Let's get wet.
There were years I was watching surf contests and surf movies. starting in 1976 and then didn't for about 30 years and did again for a few years and have stopped all together. I don't watch pro sports anymore. I did see Kelly Slater from about 3 yards away enter the water at Trestles and saw Andy Irons in a heat at Huntington Beach. It was free and I didn't hear the announcer I was so close to the water so I was basically meditating. It was good at the time. Have a good weekend.
I might make it to Florida
Luke
Thanks for the post. I really appreciate it. I forgot where you were from Australia where I had once considered moving our family to about 15 years ago. I met a New Zealand doctor on a flight to LA who was really nice. This was after my daughter had survived cancer. We could have gotten into New Zealand, but that fell through because our daughter was entering her last year of high school and her therapist said not to leave Israel. It was the right decision at the time.
I had thought of moving to Florida where I first went in 1959 believe it or not as a ten year. The main highway I-95 was not built yet. My father drove us through West Virginia where I saw what we called hillbillies living in shacks. I was in utter disbelief. At gas stations in the South, there were 4 bathrooms - one for colored men, one for colored women, one for white women, one for white men. I think of it now as horrifying. Black soldiers died in World War II only to be treated like shit not only in the South.
I did some research on Florida and forgot about the hot humid weather with lightning strikes, hurricanes etc.. I was there a few times about 15 years ago during the winter months and it was fine. I might live there. A friend has a sister in Tampa who could give me information that could be helpful. I also like snow sports - cross country skiing, I'd like to try snowboarding again, and there is something called a splitboard. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sXJXLq1lN7U
The further north, the colder the weather. No one gets everything. I have not worked much in years, but I will have to. I need a divorce after 37 years (half my life to a woman I once loved and we were close who has become a monster and poisoned our two adult children against me.) I doubt I will ever see them again but in life you never know.
The truth is I don't want to leave Israel but this country has lost its deterrence. I came here because because as a Jew growing up in the 1950's I felt I wasn't a true American who were white Christians who lived in houses with white picket fences. It was a stereotype but there was no internet, and information was very difficult to find. I’m in shock that this is my decision. I thought of moving to Thailand or Cambodia or the Cayman Islands but that’s not for me. I am an American citizen who detests the materialism, selfishness, alienation, etc. that I witnessed while living in Northern California 30 years ago. It has gotten much worse, but USA is the easiest place to go. I will have to start over, but that’s life. It could be worse, and it has been when our daughter was in the pediatric cancer ward. I never could believe a baby could have cancer, which is a misnomer because it is more like 100 diseases.
There are cities filled with illegal immigrants, some of whom are murderers, drug dealers etc.. I have seen videos and I believe in legal immigration, and taking in some refugees but not ten thousand people a month with no background check. The medical system is dreadful. I know I will go through an intense culture shock because I did when I moved from Israel to Northern California when it took me a year to adjust. This time it could take a few years, and I expect intense violence. I will have to learn to use a firearm, something I never thought possible.
The America I knew with some semblance of press freedom (we had underground newspapers in the 1960s that were often threatened by the cops because of our anti-Vietnam war protests, use of illegal drugs, and so called sexual freedom which turned out to be disastrous for more than a few women I knew) is long gone. From what I can ascertain, the country is becoming more and more fascist. So is Israel. People are being jailed for expressing their opinions. I don’t feel like quoting sources but I was in disbelief when I read that about Israel. I don’t belong here anymore. If I tell people my real opinion of a country that is threatened with being nuked by Iran that is building a nuke, no one wants to hear it. People live in denial. I can’t for a lot of reasons. I feel that this is a rerun in some ways of the Vietnam War when young Americans were sacrificed for nothing. Viet Nam was no threat to the United States. World War II was completely different, and I would have supported military action.
I just wrote to a friend from the dorm at Columbia and will copy/paste parts of it.
My wife is acting more and more selfishly. She knew I had taken apart one of my skateboards to and wrote a whatsapp asking why I would do that and not just rent equipment. A worker for this building helped me and he or my landlord told her because I didn't. When I asked her where she got the information she wouldn't reply.
I have to deal with this reality. If possible I would like to see you and and your wife, but I wonder if I will be able to leave here. I was threatened supposedly with a restraining order by my nephew. It was unnerving to say the least. I did nothing wrong according to Israeli law. I never received a legal notice but there was a knock on my door and someone ringing the doorbell repeatedly after the email my wife wrote that my nephew had indeed gotten a restraining order. By law, if no one has complained or you are not considered a violent threat, the police may not enter your residence. I quietly waited and after about ten minutes opened the door. There was no one. I couldn't sleep I got so freaked out and decided I had to leave immediately and packed like a maniac and did a very disorderly job.The taxi driver didn't show up on time and I couldn't make the flight and called the travel agent and cancelled. She had said I could start over again next week which I hope to do. I was outside at 3AM and there were no police.
It's all a game for my wife but not for me. She insists she loves me and wants to see me. i have told her repeatedly i don't want to and am afraid of physically killing her I am so enraged. I know I shouldn't do that. I need time to cool out and calm down which I was doing but writing this email is getting me freaked out again. This is my reality. I am a citizen of the USA and will have to start over like it or not.
Luke
I’m not sure you understand my English which younger citizens of the USA might not understand. I am speaking more and more like I did in the late 1960s when I felt my generation were in it together to change the world for the better. I have called people on the phone and said, “What’s happenin motherfucker or (what’s shakin baby (which may have been used by beatniks in the 1950s or by comedians who mocked beatniks - I don’t know. I was a child and my parents were not beatniks and I didn’t know any) and continued with What’s shakin baby (in your neck of the woods which might have been used by hillbillies in West Virginia.) I might speak some Yiddish. I’m in complete shock but that’s my reality. I don’t want to say it’s terrible because that makes it worse. I try to put one foot in front of the other if I feel it is OK (meaning I don’t feel threatened with death or life in prison and being raped up the ass, or having my face burnt off.) Dying instantly in a missile strike is a lot more appealing. There are times I want to kill myself but for some reason refrain. It would be easier to kill myself or tell my wife to have one of her relatives come here and shoot me in the head and I really want to but never do. I listen to Jimi Hendrix or other music or watch Putney Swope here is the trailer https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vO5aZjfOIPs&t=2s. The whole movie is on Youtube which I linked a few times.
for a few minutes or do some deep breathing or physical training to calm down but I have had a virus for 3 months, with very poor sleep and am manic quite often. Physical training is good for short term stress relief but not for getting over this virus. Psychiatric medication doesn’t help. I have written enough about it already.
Luke
Take care of yourself and the people you love who can drive you crazy at times. I have to cut my losses and move on. I have learned an enormous amount recently. I don’t like it, but have realized
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ef9QnZVpVd8
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ef9QnZVpVd8[/youtube]
you don’t always get what you want but if you try sometimes you might just get what you need in the immortal words of those great English philosophers Mick Jagger, a great grandfather with a 6 year old kid (now Sir Michael Jagger which to me is such a joke - he started out as somewhat of a rebel) and Keith Richards who I can’t believe is still alive but married to the same woman for over 40 years. He expected to be drafted into the English army after graduation and thought he'd be a general. Compulsory military service was cancelled and he insists or did insist he was the leader of the greatest rock and roll band ever The Rolling Stones. There are those who beg to differ, but they are still in the business unlike others like the Grateful Dead, Jefferson Airplane, etc. etc. who had their day a zillion years ago when I was young and thought we'd bring peace, love etc. Man was I naive but I was only 18 years old and gotten an education meant to brainwash me so I'd be part of the American consumer culture and never rebel or question. I did rebel to some extent and do question and have learned and keep doing so and feel a lot lot better.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ef9QnZVpVd8
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ef9QnZVpVd8[/youtube]
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P0hxrvFc62c&t=2s
Eric Burdon wrote this song probably in 1966 so it is about 45 years later and it's so different. He now lives in Greece which my friend Yiorgos who is going through such suffering with a son dying told me is a tax haven. Listen to the lyrics at the end My faith was so much stronger then. I really did believe in my fellow men and then adds a list of people from the 1960s some of whom are dead but were alive when he wrote the song. It may not mean anything to you at your age, but it does to me because I never expected to live past 35. Eric along with Hendrix and a few others put their soul into their music. At least that's what I hear. Eric Burdon a white Englishman was friends with Hendrix a black man who had found a white audience of young people like me and couldn't reach the black audience. He knew he would die young. Maybe it was for the best and there were decades I didn't listen to his music. I remember the day he died and his death meant nothing to me but I really miss him these days.
Thanks for the post. I really appreciate it. I forgot where you were from Australia where I had once considered moving our family to about 15 years ago. I met a New Zealand doctor on a flight to LA who was really nice. This was after my daughter had survived cancer. We could have gotten into New Zealand, but that fell through because our daughter was entering her last year of high school and her therapist said not to leave Israel. It was the right decision at the time.
I had thought of moving to Florida where I first went in 1959 believe it or not as a ten year. The main highway I-95 was not built yet. My father drove us through West Virginia where I saw what we called hillbillies living in shacks. I was in utter disbelief. At gas stations in the South, there were 4 bathrooms - one for colored men, one for colored women, one for white women, one for white men. I think of it now as horrifying. Black soldiers died in World War II only to be treated like shit not only in the South.
I did some research on Florida and forgot about the hot humid weather with lightning strikes, hurricanes etc.. I was there a few times about 15 years ago during the winter months and it was fine. I might live there. A friend has a sister in Tampa who could give me information that could be helpful. I also like snow sports - cross country skiing, I'd like to try snowboarding again, and there is something called a splitboard. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sXJXLq1lN7U
The further north, the colder the weather. No one gets everything. I have not worked much in years, but I will have to. I need a divorce after 37 years (half my life to a woman I once loved and we were close who has become a monster and poisoned our two adult children against me.) I doubt I will ever see them again but in life you never know.
The truth is I don't want to leave Israel but this country has lost its deterrence. I came here because because as a Jew growing up in the 1950's I felt I wasn't a true American who were white Christians who lived in houses with white picket fences. It was a stereotype but there was no internet, and information was very difficult to find. I’m in shock that this is my decision. I thought of moving to Thailand or Cambodia or the Cayman Islands but that’s not for me. I am an American citizen who detests the materialism, selfishness, alienation, etc. that I witnessed while living in Northern California 30 years ago. It has gotten much worse, but USA is the easiest place to go. I will have to start over, but that’s life. It could be worse, and it has been when our daughter was in the pediatric cancer ward. I never could believe a baby could have cancer, which is a misnomer because it is more like 100 diseases.
There are cities filled with illegal immigrants, some of whom are murderers, drug dealers etc.. I have seen videos and I believe in legal immigration, and taking in some refugees but not ten thousand people a month with no background check. The medical system is dreadful. I know I will go through an intense culture shock because I did when I moved from Israel to Northern California when it took me a year to adjust. This time it could take a few years, and I expect intense violence. I will have to learn to use a firearm, something I never thought possible.
The America I knew with some semblance of press freedom (we had underground newspapers in the 1960s that were often threatened by the cops because of our anti-Vietnam war protests, use of illegal drugs, and so called sexual freedom which turned out to be disastrous for more than a few women I knew) is long gone. From what I can ascertain, the country is becoming more and more fascist. So is Israel. People are being jailed for expressing their opinions. I don’t feel like quoting sources but I was in disbelief when I read that about Israel. I don’t belong here anymore. If I tell people my real opinion of a country that is threatened with being nuked by Iran that is building a nuke, no one wants to hear it. People live in denial. I can’t for a lot of reasons. I feel that this is a rerun in some ways of the Vietnam War when young Americans were sacrificed for nothing. Viet Nam was no threat to the United States. World War II was completely different, and I would have supported military action.
I just wrote to a friend from the dorm at Columbia and will copy/paste parts of it.
My wife is acting more and more selfishly. She knew I had taken apart one of my skateboards to and wrote a whatsapp asking why I would do that and not just rent equipment. A worker for this building helped me and he or my landlord told her because I didn't. When I asked her where she got the information she wouldn't reply.
I have to deal with this reality. If possible I would like to see you and and your wife, but I wonder if I will be able to leave here. I was threatened supposedly with a restraining order by my nephew. It was unnerving to say the least. I did nothing wrong according to Israeli law. I never received a legal notice but there was a knock on my door and someone ringing the doorbell repeatedly after the email my wife wrote that my nephew had indeed gotten a restraining order. By law, if no one has complained or you are not considered a violent threat, the police may not enter your residence. I quietly waited and after about ten minutes opened the door. There was no one. I couldn't sleep I got so freaked out and decided I had to leave immediately and packed like a maniac and did a very disorderly job.The taxi driver didn't show up on time and I couldn't make the flight and called the travel agent and cancelled. She had said I could start over again next week which I hope to do. I was outside at 3AM and there were no police.
It's all a game for my wife but not for me. She insists she loves me and wants to see me. i have told her repeatedly i don't want to and am afraid of physically killing her I am so enraged. I know I shouldn't do that. I need time to cool out and calm down which I was doing but writing this email is getting me freaked out again. This is my reality. I am a citizen of the USA and will have to start over like it or not.
Luke
I’m not sure you understand my English which younger citizens of the USA might not understand. I am speaking more and more like I did in the late 1960s when I felt my generation were in it together to change the world for the better. I have called people on the phone and said, “What’s happenin motherfucker or (what’s shakin baby (which may have been used by beatniks in the 1950s or by comedians who mocked beatniks - I don’t know. I was a child and my parents were not beatniks and I didn’t know any) and continued with What’s shakin baby (in your neck of the woods which might have been used by hillbillies in West Virginia.) I might speak some Yiddish. I’m in complete shock but that’s my reality. I don’t want to say it’s terrible because that makes it worse. I try to put one foot in front of the other if I feel it is OK (meaning I don’t feel threatened with death or life in prison and being raped up the ass, or having my face burnt off.) Dying instantly in a missile strike is a lot more appealing. There are times I want to kill myself but for some reason refrain. It would be easier to kill myself or tell my wife to have one of her relatives come here and shoot me in the head and I really want to but never do. I listen to Jimi Hendrix or other music or watch Putney Swope here is the trailer https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vO5aZjfOIPs&t=2s. The whole movie is on Youtube which I linked a few times.
for a few minutes or do some deep breathing or physical training to calm down but I have had a virus for 3 months, with very poor sleep and am manic quite often. Physical training is good for short term stress relief but not for getting over this virus. Psychiatric medication doesn’t help. I have written enough about it already.
Luke
Take care of yourself and the people you love who can drive you crazy at times. I have to cut my losses and move on. I have learned an enormous amount recently. I don’t like it, but have realized
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ef9QnZVpVd8
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ef9QnZVpVd8[/youtube]
you don’t always get what you want but if you try sometimes you might just get what you need in the immortal words of those great English philosophers Mick Jagger, a great grandfather with a 6 year old kid (now Sir Michael Jagger which to me is such a joke - he started out as somewhat of a rebel) and Keith Richards who I can’t believe is still alive but married to the same woman for over 40 years. He expected to be drafted into the English army after graduation and thought he'd be a general. Compulsory military service was cancelled and he insists or did insist he was the leader of the greatest rock and roll band ever The Rolling Stones. There are those who beg to differ, but they are still in the business unlike others like the Grateful Dead, Jefferson Airplane, etc. etc. who had their day a zillion years ago when I was young and thought we'd bring peace, love etc. Man was I naive but I was only 18 years old and gotten an education meant to brainwash me so I'd be part of the American consumer culture and never rebel or question. I did rebel to some extent and do question and have learned and keep doing so and feel a lot lot better.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ef9QnZVpVd8
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ef9QnZVpVd8[/youtube]
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P0hxrvFc62c&t=2s
Eric Burdon wrote this song probably in 1966 so it is about 45 years later and it's so different. He now lives in Greece which my friend Yiorgos who is going through such suffering with a son dying told me is a tax haven. Listen to the lyrics at the end My faith was so much stronger then. I really did believe in my fellow men and then adds a list of people from the 1960s some of whom are dead but were alive when he wrote the song. It may not mean anything to you at your age, but it does to me because I never expected to live past 35. Eric along with Hendrix and a few others put their soul into their music. At least that's what I hear. Eric Burdon a white Englishman was friends with Hendrix a black man who had found a white audience of young people like me and couldn't reach the black audience. He knew he would die young. Maybe it was for the best and there were decades I didn't listen to his music. I remember the day he died and his death meant nothing to me but I really miss him these days.
I might make it to Florida
Thanks Lenny,
Have a good weekend too! Hope you catch some fun waves in Florida. Safe travels!
Have a good weekend too! Hope you catch some fun waves in Florida. Safe travels!
“Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then, gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.” — Rilke
I might make it to Florida
Lenny I understand you loud and clear…
What a life you’ve led…and at 74 you’re still on the move. That’s envious to some! Some people have been in stasis for decades and would yearn to have new places and circumstances to get acquainted with by themselves.
Some people just yearn to be alone and on the move.
Safe travels mate.
What a life you’ve led…and at 74 you’re still on the move. That’s envious to some! Some people have been in stasis for decades and would yearn to have new places and circumstances to get acquainted with by themselves.
Some people just yearn to be alone and on the move.
Safe travels mate.
I might make it to Florida
Luke and Bram
Thank you. I hope you are having good weekends. I don't know if I will write again. When I imagine getting on the plane it is unbelievably painful. What it will be like if I live that long I don't know. I still am in disbelief over so many things. My wife's behavior and advice, the prime minister of this country and the top generals including one whose son died (I find it hard to believe that the top generals in the US military would allow their sons to die in Vietnam but maybe World War II. President John F kennedy had been a war hero in that war. I could list other things but will stop.
I hope you guys learned something useful from me. This is how I feel these days but I'm not bummin around and won't get a sailin boat. There are better versions of this but it is from the album I bought in 1968. The last album track was Bear Melt which you can probably find on Youtube which was recorded at the Thanksgiving show I attended described below. Life sure is weird at times.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ltyjNjsz8UU
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ltyjNjsz8UU[/youtube]
I heard the Jefferson Airplane 4 times in the 60s including Thanksgiving 1968 when Hendrix was playing in Philharmonic Hall which I would have attended but didn't know about. Now I know something about what I missed. It was said to be a great concert from reviews and probably was but the recording on YouTube is a terrible audience recording and not worth listening to. I did hear him play 3 times and at Woodstock so I can't complain. Nobody gets everything.
Jimi gave way too much to my generation which helped kill him at the age of 28 (the autopsy report described his physical condition as someone in his 50s which was a lot healthier for most men in 1970 because there was no pesticides until after World War II in the foods, life was a lot lot harder for most people - if you want to know more you can research it.) Too many young people of my generation wanted him to keep playing his old hits like Foxy Lady which you can find on YouTube.
I thought he should stop playing his old hit and do sessions with people like Miles Davis, the great jazz trumpeter. It didn’t happen.
From the accounts of people who knew him, he was tired of the music business by 1969 and needed a break, but his manager Michael Jeffreys who was a gangster and had stolen a lot of Hendrix’ money had put it into different investments that would have taken a really excellent accounting firm to find had lined up more concerts for Hendrix to play in Europe in 1970. Hendrix was on the verge of some kind of breakdown according to people who knew him well.
I have a recording of Hendrix final concert. I can’t listen to it because descriptions of the chaos in Germany at the time are and were too much for me emotionally to want to listen to.
He didn’t live much longer and died September 18, 1970. No one knows whether from an accidental overdose or from being murdered. There was an autopsy and his then girlfriend Cathy Etchingham (I know way too much about him from second or third or fourth hand accounts - I haven’t read much about Hendrix in a few years and have begun to remember what I want to forget about a lot of things including my adult children when they were babies 30 years ago - Nobody told me there’d be days like this.) Etchingham ordered another one maybe ten years ago. It was inconclusive.
This is a description of the Hendrix Thanksgiving concert I missed.
https://forums.stevehoffman.tv/threads/ ... 68.622975/
What you don't know is that my dorm on the eve of Thanksgiving was empty and a friend who died in 2017 at the age of 68 let some friends use his room. I got a ticket for the Jefferson Airplane and Buddy Guy Junior Wells band the same night and to the 11:00 show. I flew back to my hometown the next day. To get to the Fillmore East in the East village was frightening. If you weren't on the subway (I had to change subway lines with a walk between lines at 42nd Street when it was deserted with the exception of a few potential murderers (I'm not joking) was frightening when I was 19. I can’t believe the things I did at that age, but I know I lucked out over and over to be alive.
These bastard friends of my friend wouldn't let me accompany them and their dates to the concert. I walked out to Broadway and 114th from my dorm. Broadway was deserted which never happened at that hour. Going to Philharmonic Hall would have been very easy on the subway. Anyhow, I was frightened but got on the subway at 110th. It was empty. I had bought a ticket and was going no matter what. If I knew now what I didn't know then, I would have taken a cab to Philharmonic Hall and heard Hendrix.
I didn’t get killed on the way to the concert although it was terrifying. The concert was good but not great. I didn’t need those bastards to return to my dorm and was even on the same subway going back when I felt fine and arrived back at around 5AM.
I don’t remember exactly but probably slept a few hours or not at all. I know I had purchased a metal heavy trunk (it wasn’t weighed at the airport and I wouldn’t consider taking it today if I could find one to buy - I probably couldn’t new and the old ones are probably considered antiques and expensive but I wasn’t going to write more than a few lines and this is going on and on) I put my stereo and record collection and whatever else I had into it and shlepped it out by hand somehow (there were no wheels on it) probably to Broadway to hail a cab because I couldn’t have called for one. The only phone then was in the shower and I didn’t have a phone book and doubt a cab company would have come but the dispatcher would have laughed at me for wasting his time (not her, zir’s or some artificial intelligence dispatcher)
As I write this I am in disbelief that I did it, because I wouldn’t contemplate doing it again today anywhere let alone what I read about Manhattan being filled with illegal immigrants some of whom are killers and drug dealers and people who shit on the streets. I am laughing because this is impossible but I have read this and seen videos of long lines of illegals in Manhattan but still don’t believe it, but people who live there have told me it’s true. I know they wouldn’t lie. I wrote enough. I hope you have good lives. I tried to give some of my hard earned life wisdom. I could say more and more and more but it’s enough.
Dig this as we used to say
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7GELymGpXHQ
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7GELymGpXHQ[/youtube]
Here is the original version from 1956 when I was 7 years old which I never heard let alone saw until a few weeks ago. Watch how the black woman dressed as a maid (we used to call them that) dances by the end of the clip. She is a trained dancer.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f8Vfin7mqdw
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f8Vfin7mqdw[/youtube]
Thank you. I hope you are having good weekends. I don't know if I will write again. When I imagine getting on the plane it is unbelievably painful. What it will be like if I live that long I don't know. I still am in disbelief over so many things. My wife's behavior and advice, the prime minister of this country and the top generals including one whose son died (I find it hard to believe that the top generals in the US military would allow their sons to die in Vietnam but maybe World War II. President John F kennedy had been a war hero in that war. I could list other things but will stop.
I hope you guys learned something useful from me. This is how I feel these days but I'm not bummin around and won't get a sailin boat. There are better versions of this but it is from the album I bought in 1968. The last album track was Bear Melt which you can probably find on Youtube which was recorded at the Thanksgiving show I attended described below. Life sure is weird at times.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ltyjNjsz8UU
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ltyjNjsz8UU[/youtube]
I heard the Jefferson Airplane 4 times in the 60s including Thanksgiving 1968 when Hendrix was playing in Philharmonic Hall which I would have attended but didn't know about. Now I know something about what I missed. It was said to be a great concert from reviews and probably was but the recording on YouTube is a terrible audience recording and not worth listening to. I did hear him play 3 times and at Woodstock so I can't complain. Nobody gets everything.
Jimi gave way too much to my generation which helped kill him at the age of 28 (the autopsy report described his physical condition as someone in his 50s which was a lot healthier for most men in 1970 because there was no pesticides until after World War II in the foods, life was a lot lot harder for most people - if you want to know more you can research it.) Too many young people of my generation wanted him to keep playing his old hits like Foxy Lady which you can find on YouTube.
I thought he should stop playing his old hit and do sessions with people like Miles Davis, the great jazz trumpeter. It didn’t happen.
From the accounts of people who knew him, he was tired of the music business by 1969 and needed a break, but his manager Michael Jeffreys who was a gangster and had stolen a lot of Hendrix’ money had put it into different investments that would have taken a really excellent accounting firm to find had lined up more concerts for Hendrix to play in Europe in 1970. Hendrix was on the verge of some kind of breakdown according to people who knew him well.
I have a recording of Hendrix final concert. I can’t listen to it because descriptions of the chaos in Germany at the time are and were too much for me emotionally to want to listen to.
He didn’t live much longer and died September 18, 1970. No one knows whether from an accidental overdose or from being murdered. There was an autopsy and his then girlfriend Cathy Etchingham (I know way too much about him from second or third or fourth hand accounts - I haven’t read much about Hendrix in a few years and have begun to remember what I want to forget about a lot of things including my adult children when they were babies 30 years ago - Nobody told me there’d be days like this.) Etchingham ordered another one maybe ten years ago. It was inconclusive.
This is a description of the Hendrix Thanksgiving concert I missed.
https://forums.stevehoffman.tv/threads/ ... 68.622975/
What you don't know is that my dorm on the eve of Thanksgiving was empty and a friend who died in 2017 at the age of 68 let some friends use his room. I got a ticket for the Jefferson Airplane and Buddy Guy Junior Wells band the same night and to the 11:00 show. I flew back to my hometown the next day. To get to the Fillmore East in the East village was frightening. If you weren't on the subway (I had to change subway lines with a walk between lines at 42nd Street when it was deserted with the exception of a few potential murderers (I'm not joking) was frightening when I was 19. I can’t believe the things I did at that age, but I know I lucked out over and over to be alive.
These bastard friends of my friend wouldn't let me accompany them and their dates to the concert. I walked out to Broadway and 114th from my dorm. Broadway was deserted which never happened at that hour. Going to Philharmonic Hall would have been very easy on the subway. Anyhow, I was frightened but got on the subway at 110th. It was empty. I had bought a ticket and was going no matter what. If I knew now what I didn't know then, I would have taken a cab to Philharmonic Hall and heard Hendrix.
I didn’t get killed on the way to the concert although it was terrifying. The concert was good but not great. I didn’t need those bastards to return to my dorm and was even on the same subway going back when I felt fine and arrived back at around 5AM.
I don’t remember exactly but probably slept a few hours or not at all. I know I had purchased a metal heavy trunk (it wasn’t weighed at the airport and I wouldn’t consider taking it today if I could find one to buy - I probably couldn’t new and the old ones are probably considered antiques and expensive but I wasn’t going to write more than a few lines and this is going on and on) I put my stereo and record collection and whatever else I had into it and shlepped it out by hand somehow (there were no wheels on it) probably to Broadway to hail a cab because I couldn’t have called for one. The only phone then was in the shower and I didn’t have a phone book and doubt a cab company would have come but the dispatcher would have laughed at me for wasting his time (not her, zir’s or some artificial intelligence dispatcher)
As I write this I am in disbelief that I did it, because I wouldn’t contemplate doing it again today anywhere let alone what I read about Manhattan being filled with illegal immigrants some of whom are killers and drug dealers and people who shit on the streets. I am laughing because this is impossible but I have read this and seen videos of long lines of illegals in Manhattan but still don’t believe it, but people who live there have told me it’s true. I know they wouldn’t lie. I wrote enough. I hope you have good lives. I tried to give some of my hard earned life wisdom. I could say more and more and more but it’s enough.
Dig this as we used to say
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7GELymGpXHQ
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7GELymGpXHQ[/youtube]
Here is the original version from 1956 when I was 7 years old which I never heard let alone saw until a few weeks ago. Watch how the black woman dressed as a maid (we used to call them that) dances by the end of the clip. She is a trained dancer.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f8Vfin7mqdw
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f8Vfin7mqdw[/youtube]